There
was prolonged silence after my wife Kris finished praying for a homeless man
she had just met. His worn down physical appearance belied his true age and his
hollow eyes betrayed the emotional scars that resided inside. She respectfully
waited for her new friend to raise his head and open his eyes. With a downward gaze he slowly tilted his
bearded face toward her and she saw tears hover and pool above his sunburned
cheeks. In spite of his tattered and unkempt appearance, she put her arm around
his shoulder and asked if he was okay. He let out a soft breath and with a
tension releasing sigh his shoulders relaxed. He couldn’t remember how long it
had been since someone had physically touched him in a gentle way. With a
broken, barely audible voice he whispered, “Thank you for not treating me like
trash.”
With all of its trappings and causes, homelessness is one of the most demeaning of human tragedies, a tragedy that all too often remains lost in the vacuum of the back corners of a community.
When
working with the homeless one must be willing to cross many poignant emotional
bridges. Along the way, we discover that
by doing so an emotional cost is extracted for that right-of-passage. It is a
cost most people would find too high a price to pay.
Working with the homeless is not a feel good adventure. It
will challenge the most enthusiastic of volunteers. We have seen well
intentioned wonderful people with good hearts succumb to the realities of this
denigrating environment and quickly drop away retreating to a safer emotional
haven. Having made a nobel attempt to help someone in need, they purhaps experience for the first time just how difficult it is to confront this tragic loss of human
potential. This is not intended as a general endictment of those who find themselves unable to connect emotionally, because all of us are in many ways guilty of this
same reaction.
More often than not, a homeless person will be handicapped
by some kind of physical, emotional, or circumstantial issue, sometimes all
three. There are times a well meaning person can do all the right things, say
all the right words, have all the right intentions, only to experience dejection
when the hopefully expectant response does not materialize. This is a normal
human reaction to such a delicate situation and it contributes a great deal to
the reluctance of people to follow through with their good intentions.
If care is not observed with our personal emotions, one can grow
frustrated if not callous and indifferent. It takes a great deal of
perseverance and a thick skin to work with the homeless. More often than not,
even after repeated attempts to positively connect and to encourage them to make
life altering changes to their situation, they continually fall back into their
old ways. As bad as those ways can be, they are a familiar comfort zone for
them and when you live on the streets comfort zones also become escape zones.
It would be easier in many ways to simply walk away and leave them to their
often self inflicted miseries. Yet, solving the disaster that is homelessness
requires more. It requires that we look upon those trapped within its grasp
through the filter of a Christ-like heart.
Our
emotions are tested beyond what we as ordinary people might otherwise be
willing to endure. Our emotions though, are not strengthened by our own
abilities. They are emboldened when we begin to understand the homeless as
Christ would understand them.
All homeless have a back story. Somewhere in their past
something happened that triggered a downward spiral that eventually landed them
on the streets alone and with no means to recover. Those back stories can be
tragic, they can be improbable, they can be circumstantial, but most
importantly they belong to the individual. One revealing observation that holds
true to almost all of the homeless people we have encountered is this; they
will speak about their now, they will speak about their past, but they rarely
speak about their future.
Their
now consists of continuous trials of surviving day to day, often struggling
with alcohol abuse or emotional turmoil. Their past is often filled with tragic
events, but almost always there is one good thing from an earlier happier time
they cling to as a life preserver, as a way to say, ‘You see…I do have value’.
Their situation often circumvents any thoughts of a new future. The future to
them is too far away, too distant a hill to climb and one that is too steep.
Alcohol, drugs, and just as importantly, a lost sense of who they are keep them
locked inside a prison of emotional stagnation. They have lost the ability
to give, lost the ability to care, and lost the desire to try. In short they
have lost their identity.
Working with the homeless is not pretty. It is an emotional
rollercoaster filled with dashed hopes, crumbled expectations, and broken
dreams. But all it takes is one miracle moment where the spark of life returns
to eyes that were once hollow and a flash of warmth returns to a heart that was cold for far too long,
to realize that in spite of the emotional drain, this is the right thing to do.
Like when the man said in the opening statement, “Thank you for not treating me
like trash,” those are the moments when you know it is all worth it and realize
that lives are changed one heart at a time. What we should understand is that the
first hearts that require changing are often our own.
Our homeless friend
Greg would say, “Ya got that
right…Ya know what I’m say’n”.
Keith
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My amazing wife Kris began a journey in 2009 to connect with the homeless in our community. She started with a simple objective; to provide blankets for those who live on the streets. Through those blankets she met those who were silently suffering from untold hurts. Through those blankets she was able to share her love for Christ and by doing so was often able to plant a seed of redemption into their hearts.
Along the way she met a homeless man named Greg and through his tragic life, her life working with the homeless became an adventure filled with challenges she never expected.
As she listened to the heart wrenching stories shared by the homeless, they filled her heart with compassion. Feeling led by God she began to write about her encounters, to give the homeless a voice. Those writings became the foundation for a unique book, a story that allows the reader to understand firsthand what it is like to live on the streets. It is a book about lost dreams, empty hopes, and lives searching for significance and meaning. It is about how simple acts of kindness can generate a positive moment of reflection in a homeless peerson's life. It is about how the world of the homeless changed her life. You will find it a revealing, intimate, and emotional look at what it means to be homeless.
The book is appropriately called "Ya Know What I'm Say'n" and will be released soon through Christian Publishing House...and available on Amazon.com, Barnesandnoble.com, Kobo Books, and other outlets.